
Well it is. That’s why I don’t run them. But the essence of running a marathon relates to the way I’ve felt about life lately. It’s like I’m at the point where I say to myself, “I’m going to stop. I can’t do this anymore.” So I start bashing the trainer, or the self-help exercise book that told me running 26.2 miles was a good idea to begin with. Or I start to tell myself that my body’s not capable of handling such a distance, and questioning whether or not I’ve had enough water that day to even try.
I’m sure we can all relate to these kind of dialogues. A lot of things are hard, we should just face it. The good news is, I think there’s a point to it all. Regardless of work, friendships, or family, some personalities are harder to deal with – they’re going to make you want to stop. And yea, you’re going to want to believe the stories in your head telling you that you’re unprepared and you’re not good enough - or that someone you know could do “it” better. But the truth is life will go on, and that which does not kill you makes you stronger – yes, I said it.
Why not dare to live on the other side of unimaginable pain? Pain that makes you doubt every second you can take one more minute of what you’re going through. I think that’s what we were all made for, to break through that barrier. I myself have seen transformation happen on the other side of that breaking point because I see my learning curve sharpening.
And so I’ve instituted a new rule and it goes a little something like this… We all have a point where we typically give up. Well from now on when I reach this point, I’m going to reach deep for some leftover stores of courage and push through it. If I really want to take this rule to it’s limit, I’m going to break through the second barrier too. Refuse to quit and resolve to reach your tipping point. I predict the hills will become a lot more manageable from there.
And I have a feeling the knowledge & insights will come in handy someday.
Keep Trucking.

For my birthday my grandpa gave me this cross that belonged to my grandmother. It’s truly beautiful. Thanks everyone for all the birthday love, I am so blessed. (Taken with instagram)

I was watching the Oscars tonight, hosted by Mr. Crystal and I thought to myself – oh it’s a throw back and as a friend’s father put it, “safe”. I thought, there couldn’t be a better word to describe it. “Safe” is exactly what the Oscars did by asking Billy to play host - he’s done it before, he’s good, he’s a bit older and catering to the older crowd - chums of the academy? Perhaps. Befitting of a year in memorial of so many greats. It wasn’t until Meryl Streep won for best actress that I came to a realization. It happened when Ms. Streep started her speech by saying, “everyone in America is going ‘oh lord, her?’ Again??” Well, she couldn’t be more right. I wanted Michelle Williams for her role in, “My Week with Marilyn,” but alas, she lost.
If anyone heard Meryl’s lengthy introduction earlier in the show, she’s more than received recognition for her career over the years - and so I thought my scoff was just. But enough about the details which I won’t go into and back to the epiphany. We want, so we covet. We think we can do better, and so we measure and we aspire. But we’re missing one great big detail. I can want Michelle Williams to win all I want, and I can scoff when Meryl Streep wins but here is the thing; Without Meryl Streep the Oscars are not the Oscars.
I repeat: Without Meryl Streep, the Oscars are not THE OSCARS. Imagine working your whole life to get to a place that your valence* has always resided, only to find that they aren’t there anymore. You’ve dreamt your whole life to get to the Oscars and your work has embodied the influence of greats such as Meryl herself, and yet when your path finally leads you home, she’s no longer a part of it. In fact she has since departed.
Think of those that you strive for, you live for, you exist for. Consider that it’s your admiration for those people that matters the most. That way when you finally get to where you are going, you won’t have missed it. Them. Those. Your truest focal points. Love, admiration, and respect. Know who you are, why, and you will know them. Then be thankful, and celebrate for that is what life is all about!
Congrats to Mrs. Streep on her 3rd Oscar win. I wish her many more! This piece is dedicated to my Grandmother, Arline Beckstead who passed away a little less than a month ago. You might be gone but you live on in my heart and my ambitions and more than anything, I wish you were here.

Definition: Valence - Negative or positive psychological value assigned by a person to another person, event, goal, job, object, outcome, etc., based on its attractiveness to him or her.
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